I'm breathing, and learning. I hope that everything is going well for you all. I'm just getting settled back into the routine of school and work and the balancing act that is life. I realize that right now my body is reacting funny to all stimuli, so if I seem off, I apoligize. I think that once I get used to it, my body will calm down and everything will go back to normal.

It's all good!

Love~

Surgery. I'm headed for surgery.

I've got to go.

Love~

I'm breathing. And my hand started working again, so I can type. Things are not improving but I'm getting used to it. it's not that big of a deal. I'll be done soon. Only a few more weeks. Thank you.

Love~

I am me.

I am a Christian. I am not ashamed of that.

Yes I am ashamed of who I am. I know that my heart is too hard, and that I am not enough. I know that I am a sinner saved by grace.

I do not know what grace is. 

I do not understand salvation.

I believe in Hell.

I do not believe in Heaven.

I believe I may have a place in Hell reserved because of my past. Yes, I know what I used to do is sin, and that it was horrible. I do not need you, or any of the God Squad to tell me that.

I know that I am a thorn in most people's sides. I know that I can try to make up for that.

I know somethings I've done can't be forgiven or forgotten by the people that I've done them to. 

I know that I am April, and apperantly that is an adjective, noun, verb, and adverb.

Yes, I also know I can't spell.

I am from the mountians.

I am not a weak girl.

I am not a soft person.

I am just me. I can't be everything to everyone. I can't even be what I need to be for me. I understand this, and am working on all the issues listed.

Love~

Our university is going to get together and pray at 10:00pm Eastern Standard Time for the families and the tragic victims of the Virgina Tech Massacre. We are also going to pray for the other students at this school, for them to feel a protective hand of God around them. We would love it if we could get a group of other believers to pray with us.

Thank you.

I'm still here.

Well guys, It's 2007.

I am alive and well. I read Jeremiah 31 today, about the promise of God in the new covenant, and I realized that this year will be better. 

2006 was a heck of a year. So many things happened. I was looking over my old posts the other day and I realixed how much I've changed and the people around me have changed. I am so blessed. I have way more than I deserve. I have a father who loves me immensely and would give his last breath if it meant I would be happy. I have siblings who look up to me, two brothers who would defend me even if it meant taking out some really big guys, and two sisters who think that I hung the moon. I have a non-biological sister who keeps me striaght and loves me no matter what. I have a nonbiological brother who loves me so much that he will fight me and teach me.

I have friends who love me. Who love me enough to let me love them. It's amazing.

I have a Lord who gives me most of everything that I would ever want let alone need.

It's a great great thing.

Just thought I would share.

Love~

I am alive, but at home. This might make the first statement a lie soon.

Love~